MEU CU

It’s insane how every time I show an ounce of frustration, anger, or sadness, she thinks I'm actually feeling those things towards her. I’m not. She really thinks she is the whole reason I feel any feelings and the only one that can cause them. And she is completely wrong, and that’s really the reason why she is so angry about this. Because she is finding out she isn’t my sun when in reality, I am my own sun, and I think that that is okay and healthy. But no, every time she finds out I’m my priority and she isn't, she gets mad. As if I owed her something. I know what I do want to give her: love, 90% of my awake time, cuddles, sex, talks, and being there for her every time she needs something. This is what I wanna give to her, but she doesn’t want that, no. She wants to be my top priority, even before myself, and the only thing I think about. Sorry, you are not. And this is not because I don’t love you, but because you are so fucking pushy. I can’t stand that shit anymore. Every...

Ok. So, I'll write this so maybe we can solve things faster that way.  So, the actual problem was not really today, as we can probably both access. Today just happened to be a good example of what our fights look like. So maybe we can learn some things from it. In the beginning of the conversation, I said I was "annoying" in the sense that I was goofy, wanting to interact, happy to see you. I think maybe I meant annoying in a needy sense. Because that's what comes to my mind when someone calls another person annoying. I was just happy to see you.  After that happened, you said you couldn't deal with me being annoying right now. Which to me made sense, because I was needy and maybe you were tired. But what you actually thought my “annoying” meant was being mean. Now, if we had just processed that small misinterpretation and moved on from it ,I would be more than fine now. In fact, I'd probably be happy again and eager to talk. But that was not the case.  You st...