MEU CU

This is  gonna be a flow of ideas, no time to think, no time to edit. It is 16:44 and in twenty minutes, I will stop writing.  I’m bored. And I know what happens when I’m bored. I cut corners. And that works, actually. Cutting corners makes me focus on what I want. But this time, it’s different. What I want is not what my guts tell me. And I don’t know if that's good. I want to run from my friends. I want to end those pseudo relationships and find new ones, test new things. But what I actually need to do is to stay. I gotta stay and see how to keep relationships after things start to plato.  But that’s hard! I don’t want to fight for my friends. I don’t want to be sorry or ask for people to be sorry for me. I don’t want to solve long lasting issues, I don’t want to ask myself what I should do to keep it healthy and sustainable. This is too complicated and I’ve never gone far enough to do these things.  So, technically, I know this is the learning phase, this is the m...

  Acabei de começar um livro chamado “preguiça não existe”, algo que eu tenho escrito há alguns anos, notando sobre a veracidade deste livro com minhas experiências anedóticas desde o ínicio da minha adolescência. É interessante ser saudável mentalmente e fisicamente. Quando você descobre algo bom, você ou já faz aquilo, ou não faz coisas muito longe daquilo. Nesse livro, foi sugerido que eu fizesse uma curta experiência com escrita expressiva (coisa que também tenho feito há anos, mas que por algum motivo, parei). Eu devo escolher um assunto que considero importante, e seguir escrevendo sobre ele por pelo menos 20 minutos, então vamos começar. São 17:09 nesse momento e decidi que vou falar sobre o conceito de casamento. Casamento é uma instituição social que serve para a monogamia e organização de casais héteros, com a função de que eles tenham filhos, coletem riquezas ao longo da vida, passem para tais filhos, se apoiem emocionalmente nessa família e morram sem se sentirem sozinh...

She has Lymphoma. She is sick. And for better or for worse, I love her. She would hate to hear that, but I feel like I have no choice except to be with her because I love her too much to go away. I want her, and I can't want other people for now. I tried it with Tuga. I tried to have something with her but all I could think about was the woman that doesn't have a nationality, last name or a birth date. Thinking about it, everything seems so absurd. But I'd do anything to make us work. Everything started when she DMed me on Twitter. That sounds so dumb, but that's exactly how it started. We had interacted a couple of times in different posts, but we had never talked. She was just there and decided to rant about Westallens being annoying on Twitter. I listened and answered the same way she started the conversation: as if we were friends already. The talk was great and slowly we began to talk more. After a couple of days I decided to take a break from twitter and I asked i...