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Acabei de sair do consultório do nutrólogo no dia ¨de Julho de 2023. Depois de ter tomado suplementos de vitamina D de 10.000 UI, ela prece ser cronicamente baixa. O Doutor sugeriu que eu aumente a dose ou comece a tomar 50.000 UI por semana. Meu selênio ainda está baixo e meu ferro também. Tudo está mais ou menos estabilizado desde a última vez que eu fui ao nutrólogo, o que mais mudou foi o tamanho da minha cintura. Perdi 5cm porque ganhei músculo nas costas, fazendo a gordura ir pra lá "cobrir" o músculo e deixar de cobrir minha barriga.  Quanto ao meu progresso na academia, meus ganhos de força tem sido constantes e tenho aumentado minhas repetições ou peso todas as vezes que vou à academia (sem excessão). Basicamente, eu preciso ganhar massa muscular e ganhar o menos possível de gordura. Em geral, eu fiquei mais saudável desde a última vez que estive lá, e não menos. Mas nada essecial mudou. Eu piamente acredito que meu treino está perfeito, muito poucas alterações seria...

Five years ago, Loops tried to be more assertive. She was trying to learn to say "no" and keep her word. And although she tried, she didn't have the energy to not cave in. Her mom started pissing her off and asking why she did certain things.  Now she started doing courses on coding, and she's doing very well. But exercising has been difficult. She always expects fast results because she has experience, and her energy is more limited. It's about her brain being constantly tired.  The reason she's trying to change is because she wants to be a good person. Someone who takes care of others and takes care of themselves and doesn't take advantage of others. She wants the money to help herself. When she got back from the army, she started seeing everything the way it was. She didn't pay attention to her situation before. When her dad started giving her no money and he made her life harder on purpose. She learned that you have to trust people that help you wh...

It is in capitalism's interests that social movements never really do anything. It is on their priority list that we don't even notice that we are oppressed, and most people don't. Most people never realize they are being oppressed according to a system. But some few people notice it, name it and try to find community. What now? These communities may gather in person, but most don't, not nowadays. So we communicate via the Internet most of the time. What parts of our activism are being held captive by constant surveillance? Changing subjects for a sec, I've always been very critical of feminism. Not in a reactionary way, but more in a "this is kinda racist idk" way. I've never fully identified with feminism because it always sounded too simplistic, too white, too whiny, and not enough action-centered. Much of my icks toward feminism are connected to victim blaming in some way. That's something I've been wanting to change,  and although I've...

This text isn't supposed to be a diary or an expression of my opinions, its purpose is to go over my plan of leaving this country. I never disliked Brazil, and I still think living here is a good option for me, but my wife lives in Mexico. And I cannot blackmail my parents into paying for my shit if I stay in Brazil. Due to my dearest sister that left Brazil for the US, going abroad is my only option. I'll stay in Brazil for a year more. I'll enjoy my family's presence and study to get my Spanish certificate as soon as possible (July 2024). I'll also work for a year at Wizard, the language school I've been going to since I was a kid. They don't pay well, but they pay, and that's one of the reasons I'll stay here for longer. My parents won't want to help me when I go to Mexico, so I gotta take care of myself. I want enough money to buy the things for my apartment. The apartment must include a king-size bed, a refrigerator, a microwave, a ninja mix...

Lavignism is the philosophy of doing what you want. Based on the inspiring message of Avril Lavigne, you don't have the obligation to be who you are, that's a gift you give to yourself.  Now, going a bit deeper, what is "being yourself"? According to scripture, it's when you dress how you want to dress, look how you wanna look, do what you wanna do, and think what you wanna think. Essentially, being yourself is doing whatever the fuck you want. It means being real, being genuine, and being human, but above all, it means doing what you want to do with your silly little life, time, and body. I know, it's not that revolutionary. At least not at first sight. That being said, why is the philosophy so simple, and yet no other movement has defined itself that way? For about a month, I've tried to find a movement/moral/philosophy defined by doing what you want. I've analyzed some of them, trying to find the elements of Lavignism in other cultures, other times,...

There have been two moments in my life where I recovered from burnout and then came back to school only to feel empty and fail. But, although it is embarassing to fail, I noticed something too important to ignore for longer. I was going against my nature. I needed to have the balls to change everything. I've been afraid of what my life would look like if I did what I wanted. I've been afraid of the social consequences. And, as an autist, I know there will be many.  But my life is not going to fly by me anymore. I'm going to reach my full potential. And, of course, there are a thousand different paths I could walk through. You know, for a couple of years I've been testing this belief of mine. That I should do whatever I want and not be afraid of the consequences. There's something magical to this belief, and I want to test its limits. See if, at one point, I'm going to regret my decisions or if I'll continue to love the consequences of my desires even if it m...