Mom came over to Salvador and I miss Loops (april 2025)

 I feel like my biggest problem right now is that I need a best friend stat. I need someone who's willing to watch nerdy shows with me, and that enjoys my political rants and rumblings. I need someone to take care of my cats when I'm in Brasília. I need someone that understands that I'm healing and that I don't want more problems. I wish I had someone that just knew me already.

My mom came over for two weeks, it was a great time. I slept better because I didn't walk the cats (and because my mom woke up in the middle of the night to feed those dumbasses before I did). My mom made me food and it was just so good to not think about that, even though the food we ordered was expensive as fuck. She bought me the stuff I didn't have the guts to buy (I'm genuinely afraid of spending money now and I have to fucking stop doing that). She made me realize that everything I do is more fun with another person there. I really loved the time she spent here.

I also felt the need to lock in. Which again, sounds stupid to say, but she repeated a thousand times how I should clean my cat's plate everytime they ate wet food, and how I need to be offering them water constantly. She made me realize my floor was dirty! And that I need to sweep everyday or else the cat fur, my human hair and the small pieces of whatever would be there for days. She told me I need to leave the apartment more